Hey there !

Hello blog,

It has been ages since I last wrote a chatty post or any Post for That matter, so I decided to do it now because... well because I want to.

So Hi, how are you ! I hope you're doing good. Me? I'm great, these past few weeks were ,probably, the busiest weeks of my life. I'm going to try as best as I possibly can to fill you in on them properly.

Okay let's do this !

-So I was one of the winners of the Casa Blanca regional public speaking competition. yaaaaay #Proud
-I had to work on loads of projects and presentation, which were all very successful, thankfully.
- I had a very fun day with my crazy group of friends in a city that we barely know, we laughed until we cried and  walked until our legs were numb but enjoyed every second of it. 
-I made the mistake of drinking nothing but black coffee first thing in the morning without eating anything else for the soul purpose of  giving myself some caffeine so i can survive the rest of the day, but it totally backfired and my body started crashing right away, for a second I thought I was dying. Thankfully I was not. Never drink coffee on an empty stomach, Lesson learned   
-I Got to take part in an overheated debate about feminism in class.
-My friends threw me a surprise birthday party we went to a cool coffee shop and then  to the beach. It was so much fun.
- I made a new friend (WHAAAAAT). One I never thought I could actually be friends with, But she is the coolest and we are totally in the inappropriate sexual humor  friendship stage now.
- I have learned that life is truly a gift and that we shouldn't waste it on nonsense.
- I decided that from now on my happiness comes first. I  finally have the right to be selfish.

That is basically it, now that my schedule is kind of back to normal; I hope I can manage to post regularly, I know I suck at that but please don't give up on me.

As always guys remember to stay positive and do more of what makes you happy. If you ever feel like talking you can reach me on my e-mail, facebook or twitter, I'm always happy to help or have a little chat.

Lots of love

Khaoula. A

xx

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A letter to the 15 years old me.

Dear Khaoula,

                  Hey there! It has been a while since we last talked. I just wanted to write this little letter to ask how are you doing, even though I know. I know you're feeling shitty , lost and confused. But believe me when I say that in a couple of years, most  of the things you're worrying about now will be of no importance. Obviously you will still be kind of confused, probably forever, but everything will be much more better. YOU will feel much more better.

I know that the last thing you want to hear is some wise pretentious person saying "it gets better". You are right but you are also wrong. It doesn't get better unless you work for it. It doesn't get better if you lay numb in bed and cry. It doesn't get better if you lock yourself in your room and hide your feelings from the rest of world. It doesn't get better if you don't do anything about it. You are allowed to grieve, you are allowed to be sad. Do that, but only for a while.

You need you alone time I get it. But please honey don't push people away. Every once in a while try and let them in, share you feelings and maybe just maybe they can take some of the pain away.

Don't worry about your future too much. Again I know your going through a rough patch, but you will do just fine, believe me. You'll discover a whole new world. A world you'll fall in love with. A world you always wanted to exist in. But no spoilers. I'll let you see for your self.

Now there are a few things I need you to always remember.

- LOVE YOURSELF, APPRECIATE YOURSELF AND GET TO KNOW YOURSELF.

- Friends come and go.

- If someone leaves your life, It's not because of you. Some people are just not meant to stay.

- It's good to have a comfort zone, but trying new things is even better. Try to do that every now and then.

- Yes you'll fall in love, yes you'll get your heart broken ,and yes you will grow out of it and go on with your life.

- Some people will hurt you, that's a given fact.I'm sorry but you have to get back up and move on.

- Love. Love wholeheartedly and with passion. Love your family, your friends, or your "significant other" it doesn't matter. Just give love to people who deserve it.

- Wear sunscreen, ALWAYS.

My darling life is beautiful, so live it to the fullest and go after what you want. Life might kick you, trick you and play you. But NEVER EVER give up.

I love you.

You, me, us.

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Little update.

Hello blog,

I haven't posted in ages, I know and for that I apologize. I have been on a school break for the past two weeks, I visited relatives and got to have a lot of quality family time. Which was much needed, to be honest.

I have been at the movies twice to watch both "Taken 3" and "Night at the museum secret of the tomb" which I'm going to post  reviews of in the upcoming days. 

But  break is over and I'm going back to school next Monday (which only a day away  :') ). I'm very excited for this semester. And I'm ready to get back to study mode and kick some literature ass.

Concerning the blog ,I have a lot of articles lined up and can't wait to  get this year started for good. Even If it's a month late.

That's it for today's little update. As always, guys, remember to stay positive and do more of what makes you happy.

                     

 Lots of love

 Khaoula.

 xx

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What's up 2015

Hello blog ,

2015 is here and I'm back. I couldn't post as regularly because I was extremely busy with finals. But now that they're over ,I'm back to regular posting.

2014 is over,looking back I think it was an okay year for me. One year ago I wouldn't even  dare to imagine being the person I am today, but look at me now.

2014 was a year of exploring and trying new things  , being more honest to myself and taking risks . It honestly changed me a lot , or should I say I changed me a lot.

But now it's over .And as I say goodbye to this crazy year I say goodbye to a lot of failed relationships , bad memories , toxic people and bad decisions. But at the same time  say hello to a fresh new exciting 365 days.

I don't know what they are  holding for me but I'm ready to make the most of each and every one.

As always guys , remember to stay positive and do more of what makes you happy.

  Khaoula.A 
xx

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A little bit of everything

 Hello blog,

             It has been a while since I last posted one of those personal post or any post for that matter. Finals week is right around the corner so I tried to up my game and study more but since this horrible cold I caught last week won't go away, studying is not exactly easy neither is breathing.

Today was a bit of a rough day for me. It's december the 10th , four years ago in this exact same day my grandma died. Let's just say that was, is and will always be one of the hardest things I had to go through.

You see, my grandma and I were very close, home was where ever she was  and losing  left a huge hole in my heart. So on every december the 10th I allow my self to grief, but once the day is over I move on . Not that I forget her or anything - because that's impossible- I just know that she wouldn't want me to be sad but happy , she would want me to go after what I want and that's exactly what I'm doing.

So yeah rest in peace granny I love you and miss you more and more everyday.

On a brigther note , Who is ready for christmas ! I know I am. I have been listening to my favourite christmas song all day.

I know this post was all over the place but please bear with me for two more weeks. Finals will be over and I'll have gotten rid of this horrible cold (hopefully).By the way I was thinking about doing a tag post. Can anyone please recommend some good ones ?

 Remember to stay positive and do more of what makes you happy.

Khaoula.A

xx

                                                            

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The return

Hello blog,

It has been nearly ten days since I last posted something, and I honestly feel very bad about it.

Life has been very hard on yours truly. With all the essays and oral presentations due very soon added to the pilled up stress, I have found myself in a never ending circle of painful headaches and self blaming.

So I took the decision to take a little break from blogging and the internet in general just so I can take care of basically everything else. But I'm back now !

Me talking a break doesn't mean that I have stopped writing  (like that could ever happen). I have wbeen writing quite a lot and I'm so excited to share it all with you.

For the posting delay!

Remember to  stay positive and do more of what makes you happy .


                                                                                  Khaoula.A
                                                                                        xx
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Addicted to the internet ??

Hello blog,

It has been ages since I've written this kind of post. And since I just came back from uni and have loads of work to do , why not write it right now and not get any thing else done .

This past week has been nothing but exhausting for me . All I wanted to do was to have a proper good night of sleep, but everytime I try something magicaly happens and I end up being awake all night. Which is not so good if you have to be up by 6.

But on the bright side,I got loads of things done. I re-decorated my room (finally),did some writing and overall  was very active although I was lacking sleep (Thank you Coffee , I love you )

I have been trying to do more things with my days instead of just going to school , coming back home and sitting on my laptop all evening and night. So I decided to join my local gym (Whaat) . Yes you heard it right I am joining the gym. I just think that it will give me more motivation to get up and get things done.

How did I come up with this decision? you may ask .well It just hit me the other day whilst I was watching a movie. I realized that my addiction to the internet is a bit out of control ( and by a bit I mean a lot ) .  I love being online but I have been litteraly doing two things with my life : school and internet. To be honest it is starting to stress me out . 

So yes I have a problem I am addicted to the internet and I get sick when my wifi  is down but I'm trying my best to switch off a little bit  because this life style I'm leading isn't exactly the healthiest, is it ...

How about you guys ! Is anyone of you bound by WIFI ? have you ever tried to shake things up ? If yes did it work out well ? 

That's all I have for you today . I hope all of you are having a nice day .

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Remember to do more of what makes you happy , I love you  and I'll see you very very soon.

                                                                         Khaoula.A
                                                                              xx

“And sometimes it sucks. And sometimes you’ll look in the mirror and hate what’s staring back of you, and cut off all your hair because you’ve wanted it to do it forever, and why not now? And some days you’ll roll over and snuggle up to the person closest to you - the person that you really care about, and you’ll feel like everything you went through in the world was worth it… just to be in that moment. And everybody gets there, and even when it’s the hardest times and you feel like you will not make it - you will. I mean, I did. And look at me now.”

—	Kaitlyn Alexander (x)

"You've got too much soul to be handled by someone who has never been passionate"

Khaoula.A

xx

Things to remember.

Hello blog,

Here is a little piece of advice for you.

1. Learn to put on your bracelets and zip up your dresses by yourself. There will be times when you will be alone.
2. Get on a long plane ride. Look out the window. Understand the immensity of our world. Understand your insignificance. Understand your absolute importance.
3. Press the send button. If you don’t say it now, you never will.
4. Do not sneer at happiness or roll your eyes at sadness. Be aware that apathy is not healthy.
5. You are more than the amount of people who want to have sex with you.
6. That pit in your stomach when he/she doesn’t text you back, it shouldn’t be there. No one should be able to control you like that.
7. Shopping is cathartic. Buy the shoes and deal with one-ply toilet paper for a while.
8. It will get better, but it will never be perfect. Learn to live through the small moments of happiness. When they disappear, remember they will resurface.
9. I promise that cookie will not change anything (except that it will make you smile).
10. Please, please, take care of yourself. You are everything to somebody. You are everything to your self. That alone is enough.

I hope you have a nice morning,afternoon or evening where ever you are.

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Remember to do more of what makes you happy and I'll see you very very soon.

                                                                   Khaoula.A

                                                                          xxx 

High sensitivity ??

Hello blog ,

I'm back to regular posting again, and today I'm going to be writing about something I had all my life but I didn't know existed until last year. It is called high senstivity.

How did you find out you were a highly sensitive person you may ask imaginary half of this conversation. Well let me explain ,last summer whilst I was packing to go on vacation , I was reading some random articles online (how do you pack and read at the same time don't even ask  ) and I came across this questionnaire. A few clicks later I found the work of psychologist and researcher Dr. Elaine Aron about the "Highly sensitive person" (HSP)  and everything fell into place.

I finally found the explanation for the over reflection ,the unheatlthy perfectionism, all the worrying about how other people feel and just wanting to be alone in a quit place .

So first things first :

What is sensitivity ?

Sensitivity is your ability to pick up on sensory information with your nervous system . It is neutral . It is like a sensitive microphone ,it picks upon subtle sounds . Not good or bad.

Your sensitive nervous system can pick up on other people's emotions , the weather , lighting , sounds , smells ... and enable your body to process it with your thoughts , feeling , emotions and actions.

For a HSP the nervous system picks up much much more information from the outside world so HSPs are way more aware of what's around them which makes them easily overwhelmed by everything . 

As far as I am concerned the worst thing about being a HSP is that I am not shy at all when I am around people I have spent a certain period of time with . My brain works like this : when I meet someone it doesn't matter how much time I've known them for , it doesn't matter if they were family , friends or  if they knew my deepest darkest secrets . If I haven't seen you in a while I'm going to be extremely shy and awkward in the first hour or so of our meeting but after that I am a completely different person  . Which is really bad because I want to talk to people and catch up with them and all as much as I possibly can ,but my brain just doesn't seem to want the same thing. It confused me a lot in the past and it still is.

I have said to myself over and over that this is way more than just being shy . Do I have some kind of double personality or what ? what is wrong with me ? It's like the person I think I am ,the person  I know I am is not able to flow to the surface for the rest of the world to see which sucks very much !

I don't quite know how to live with HS yet  .When I am with others I have an analysis of life rather than an experience of life. When alone , my life is deep , vivid and rich . Or at least that's how I see it.

What I learned from all this situation so far is that no ones know how to live, you cannot plan every minute of your life you just have to go live it . So yes I feel more deeply , I'm very emotional , I take things very personally , I prefer to do things alone , I cry very easily , I take ages to make a decision and I have a hard time turning my brain off at night. But that's who I am and I am still learning how to live with it.

 So this is it for today I hope you have a pleasant morning,afternoon or evening where ever you are.
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Remember ! don't be afraid to show your true colours , embrace who you are and do more of what makes you happy and I'll see you next time .

                                                                Khaoula .A
                                                                    xx

Update !

Hello blog ,

I had the busiest couple of days ever ,trying to get used to going to uni again after a long summer is never an easy thing. But it has been quite fun meeting all of my school friend and catching up with everyone.

I'll go back to posting regulary next week, I promise .But for now I'll leave you with something I found on the tumblr blog The light knight, that I love very very much .

   

 

Apologies For not posting again.

I hope you have a pleasant morning/ afternoon or evening where ever you are .

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Remember to do more of what makes you happy and I'll see you next time .


                                                          Love Khaoula.A

20 facts abouts me !

Hello blog !

I haven't posted in two days , I know (daily blogging huh) . But I have my reasons .
I don't know how but I've managed to hurt my hand very badly to the point that I couldn't even move it for two days .

Luckily today I got a bit better so I decieded to post a little something to keep my blog alive . And as you alredy know I chose to post twenty  fact about me (interesting  ).

So here it goes :

1- I live in Morocco (shocker right ? )

2- I love love love short hair butI don't think it will look good on me.

3-  I have something called high sensitivity ( I'll talk about in detail in an upcoming post).

4- The first destination on my must-visit list is Australia.

5- Coffee is love , Coffee is life (If you know what I mean ).

6- I obsess about Tv shows like there is no tomorrow . Glee ,OITNB , orphan black , 2 broke girls ...       (the list is infinite )
7- Blue is not only my favourite colour it's the warmest *wink*

8- The smell of a forest in the rain is like heaven to my nose .

9-  I'm mostly the person who will be found saying "It'll be just fine" in hard situations.

10- The three places I want to live in are NYC , brighton and basically anywhere in Greece.

11- Another obsession of mine : YOUTUBE . I start my day watching youtubers and I finish it watching youtubers and I ain't even mad about it .

12- I study English lit at university, this is my second year.

13- I love cooking.

14- I am a sucker for romantic comedies. (what a cliché )

15- I'm always down for a movie musical marathon , always .

16- I'm a feminist .

17- My passion is anything to do with books ... I long to be a writer.

18- I've always been a little bit of a tomboy.

19- I love Janis Joplin.

20- I write poetry and I'd love to perform slam poetry/open mic.

Those were the twenty facts , I hope you enjoyed knowing a little bit about me .
Anyway that's it for today . I hope you have a pleasant morning/ afternoon or evening where ever you are .

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Remember to do more of what makes you happy and I'll see you next time .


                                                                    Khaoula.A

Look who's back

Hello Blog ,

I AM BACK YAAY !

As I mentioned in a previous post, I went on a little holiday with family for the last three days which was absolutely amazing  .I got to meet a bunch of family members I haven't seen in ages, talk to everyone and have a good time away from the internet, which is always a good thing .

Don't get me wrong I enjoy being online , whether  I'm chatting with friends , blogging or simply just reading a random article.But sometimes you just need a break to go out, get some fresh air and maybe just maybe socialize (even though that can be quite hard ) .

Because of the so called break I took I had a lot of catching up to do.Of course the first thing I did was to go and watch the latest vlogs and main channel  videos of my favourite youtubers -Which has become quite the addiction I confess - .Then it was tumblr & bloglovin time which lasted for long three hours , in which I was very overwhelmed by all the new articles I was reading .

But the thing the really caught my attention was  one particular picture from the blog Who needs feminism ?  which I will post below that says an I quote " I NEED FEMINISM  because I'm sick and tired of being told that feminism doesn't matter and that it doesn't affect me because I'm only 16
Feminism matters to everyone,whether they like it or not,and I want to make sure that people realise just how it affects others "

Even though I am not  16 anymore -by the way I'm almost 18 - I immediatly related to this person .

Whenever I talk about feminism , sexism, sexual assault or anything related to the subject matter with my classmates and friends ,they all look at me like I'm some kind of weirdo who is talking nonsense . They always ask me why am I so passionate about something so very hated by people , something that -from their point of view- doesn't really concern me , something I don't relate to .
It doesn't matter how much I explain they never even try to understand . 

To be honest this subject isn't even debatable for them . they are so influenced by the moroccan culture that they don't even think anymore. Which kind of lead me not to mention it to some anymore. Some I cut off my life ,sadly, because I do not need any toxic friendships .

Let's not get caught up with this entire "Feminism" thing .Because if I keep writing, this will be a very very long post ,but  I'll definetly be leaving it to a future blog post . 

Anyway this is it for today . I hope you all have a pleasant morning / aftenoon or evening where ever you are  . 

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Don't forget to do more of what makes you happy and I'll see you next time.

                                                                Khaoula.A

A 2 day get away !

Hello blog !
I'm gonna be away for the next two days , which means I'mnot gonna be able to blog . But as soon as I come back I promise I'll blog daily . I couldn't be more unhappy not to blog but I realy need this little vacation before uni starts

 See you soon blog !





Have a nice day everyone 

Sometimes things are tough but look at this bunny

You are loved

Khaoula. A

How I met my soulmate ...

Hello blog .

Today I'm going to tell you the story of how I met my best friend . So here it goes , exactly one year ago on October the second 2013 I got a Facebook  message from a guy named Mohamad Kyalie.
It said and I quote "Can we be friends , we are so similar " . I was quite intrigued to know who is this guy and why are we alike .So the first thing I did was go check our mutual friends and to my surprise they were two Darren Criss & Chris Colfer fan accounts . Since I'm a huge gleek I immediatly accepted the facebook invitation and started talking to him .

Message after message I found myself getting closer to this guy  and I realized that we  were practicaly the same . A couple of days later we skyped for the first time and I never thought that I would be so nervous and so excited at the same time  to talk to somebody . And then it just happened we clicked instantly and I felt like I have known him for ages  .

We both had the same obsessions , liked the same kinds of music , movies  ,tv shows  and most importantly had the same dreams . It was a that moment when I just knew this person is my soulmate .

After weeks and weeks of talking I made him this simple little thing :

You see I'm not the type of person who lets people in very easily or at all for that matter .That's why I was very surpised of how in matter of months mohamad has become more close to me then people I knew for years and years . But the problem was that he lived in Syria which is 4000 miles away from Morocco . which means meeting him is one of the hardest things ever . Add to that that  Syria is in war at the moments so going there or even sending things in the mail is impossible. 

But that's okay because no matter how far we are he'll always be the bestest friend I have ever had . one of these days we will get the chance to meet face to face and catch up with everything . And make all our dreams come true TOGETHER . All I want to say is Mohamad if you're reading this I love you so freaking much , I hope we  stay in each other's life forever . And know that even though we don't talk that much because of everything that's happening nothing will ever get between the two of us .

So to end this , I just want to let everyone know that meeting people online and getting to know them is not a bad thing at all. Just be careful about who you are talking to and how much information you share on the internet .

Have a nice day everyone 

Khaoula.A